Saturday, January 31, 2009

GN-27

June 27, 2008

I'm so full.. tamang food trip kasi kami ni michelle kanina.. actually, lagi naman eh! heheh.. well, wala ako masyado sa mood magsulat ngayon.. just like this last few days, lagi akong wala sa mood!! sabi nga nila lagi daw ako highblood.. i cant blame them kasi yun lang naman yung nakikita nila sken, but they cant blame me too.. coz they dont even know what i feel inside.. mahirap i-explain eh! saka hindi naman ako vocal para mag-share and mag-open up sa iba.. ok naman ako eh! low energy lang talaga..

im not feeling well, parang magkakasakit pa ata ako..medyo dis-appointed kasi bumalik yung bagay na gumugulo samind ko.. whatever it is.. just leave it to me guys... that's my ultimate secret...

haist, life must to go on pa din right???

GN-26

June 26, 2008

What a dream!! kamusta na kaya si steward at bigla sya nag-appear sa dream ko!! ang weird nga eh! i dont even think about him nah then all of a sudden bigla ko syang maaalala because of that dream.. kamusta naman yun diba?! well, nasaang lupalop na kaya yun ng mundo ngayon?? pinanindigan na ata yung huli nyang nasabi saken.. well, ok na din yung ganun.. i just wish him good!! sana ok na sya ngayon.. ok as in, in all aspects!! ayun!!

change topic...

Chin phoned up, trinee na pala sya sa bluebean.. good for her!! kaya lang, di pala sila nagsabay ni maki.. musta na kaya ang bruha?? im worried about her!! dami na naman kasi nun pinoproblema eh! and i felt bad coz i wasnt there for her.. hay naku! ang mga bruha ko talagang friendship... miss them all...

GN-25

June 25, 2008

I'm not feeling well.. i dont know kung dahil sa pagod 'to or dahil bothered lang ako!! di ako makapag-focus eh! is it because of him?? haist.. sya na naman!! ok din trip ko nuh! i always said na happy ako being SINGLE.. at one point OO!! happy naman talaga eh! coz i can do whatever i want.. enjoy yun diba?! pero i cant deny the fact na behind those happiness, there's a side of me who feels EMPTINESS.. kaya sometimes malungkot din ang buhay single!!

ah basta, im not ok!! wala ako sa mood and im quite sad!! and YES, it was all because of him!! ayoko na talaga.. i cant take this anymore!! but what should i do?? ang hirap eh!! kakainis!!

r.A easy ka lang! wag ka masyado mag isip! make yourself busy... haist!!

okei.. okei... i'll try to be OKEI...

GN-24

June 24, 2008

Honestly, im not ok.. bothered ako eh! may isa kasi dyan na ginugulo yung mind ko.. pinaglalaruan na naman nya yung feelings ko.. ayoko ng ganito eh!! gusto ko kasi yung straight forward!! yung walang paligoy ligoy para umpisa pa lang alam mo na kung saan ka lulugar diba?! ah ewan, basta im not ok!! di ko alam kung anong plano nya.. or siguro ako lang yung OA.. but whatever it is, pagod na ko sa ganito!! i need a break...

GN-23

June 16, 2008

Haist, bakit ko ba naiisip si pare?? kanina pa ko wala sa tamang sirkulasyon eh! kasi naman nagtext pa sya saken, ayan tuloy namimiss ko sya... ewan ko din naman kasi saken, di ko maintindihan kung ano talagang gusto ko!! i like him and i want him back... pero pag andyan na sya, tinutulak ko naman sya palayo!! anong drama yun diba?! nakakainis!! kung bakit pa kasi umabot kami sa ganitong point.. trip lang naman yung dati eh! lam ko namang pareho lang naming gustong mag-enjoy.. pero bakit yung muntik kong pagka-fall sa kanya.. natukuyan na ata ngayon!! haist... ano bang meron ka pare?? bakit mo ba ko ginaganito?? ang daya daya mo!! wala naman sa plano ko ang magustuhan ka but you make me fall for you!! madalas indenial ako kasi feeling ko you dont feel the same.. pero pare, i was just scared to fail again!!! coz i'd been through a lot of heartaches before and i dont want that to happen again!!! pagod na ko sa ganun and i know for sure na ayaw mo din ng ganun...

ah basta, i miss you so much!!!

GN-22

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You had fun and i had fun also!! pareho lang tayo nag-enjoy sa company ng isat isa and we're both satisfied on what we had shared together.. pero hindi yun enough reason for us to commit again!! we both know naman na hindi natin kaya mag-work out diba?! kasi masyado tayong opposite and we both have our own priorities... ni hindi nga natin alam kung kasama ako or ikaw sa mga priorities na yun!! siguro nga ayoko mag-take ng risk kaya ganito ako!! kaya ganito lang ang gusto ko!! but you cant blame for that... because you're not giving me any assurance to take a risk again!! mabuti na yung ganito.. "Playing safe is the best way to enjoy a game like this" right??

I'm just being practical.. madali namang mag-quit kung talagang end of the na diba?! basta, as long as we're both happy being like this... i cant see any problem... and there's nothin to worry about, right??


pens down...

GN-21

May 30, 2008

Grabe!! im so emotional now!! i felt really bad.. di naman dahil sa nangyari ngayon kaya lang, nakakainis na kasi eh! OO game ako sa kung anong meron kami ngayon pero nakakasawa na kasi yung ganito!! parang lagi nalang ako yung dehado!! although naiintindihan ko pero masakit eh!! nasasaktan na yung pride ko!! lagi nalang bang ganito?? lagi nalang bang ako ang iiintindi?? alam ko naman lahat ng shortcommings ko sa kanya eh! and lahat yun tinatry kong maOvercome lahat.. pero sya ano?? di nya kasi ma-gets yung point ko eh! or siguro di nya lang pinapansin.. bakit?? dahil ok na sa kanya na ganito yung treatment nya saken?? di naman ako demanding eh! madali naman makaintindi pero he should treat me right... not because yun yung dapat but because yun yung tama!! ewan ko sa kanya kung anong gusto nya pero pag ganito ng ganito... im sorry!! pero marunong din ako mapagod!! napaka-insensitive nya kasi!! he doesnt care 'bout how i feel.. ganun ba talaga sya?? he's so UNFAIR!!!